“This is not who I set out to be. I did not mean for this to happen.”  I said those words at The Addiction Summit and I stand by them today. This isn’t me, but the addiction monster got a hold of me. The great thing is that those words are also true of who I am today.

This is not who I set out to be. I did not mean for this to happen. Out of one of the worst experiences of my life came a new beginning. I never set out to be this author and life changer but here I am.

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This Isn’t Me

Addict. Alcoholic. Problem drinker. That is not who I set out to be. I mean – I didn’t even start drinking until my mid-twenties. It’s not like I had this “party hard” mentality all along. What was me was the chronic overachiever striving and pushing to be the best at everything. Even drinking. There was no goal I couldn’t smash, regardless of the consequences. If I was going to keep up with the boys, I needed to drink like the boys…so I did.

This Is Not Who I Set Out To Be

I could lament for days on how the addiction monster got hold of me and the pain it caused. But I won’t, because luckily that is no longer me. It sucked. I won’t sugarcoat it. I was hurting myself, my family and my marriage. But out of it came such peace, such freedom, and such opportunity. I never imagined when I started this process that I would be sharing it with thousands of people across the world, but you know what? It feels good to do it…..way better than drinking ever did.

I Did Not Mean For This To Happen

I didn’t start drinking to get addicted. No, I started for all the “right” reasons. To be social. To get ahead at work. To relax. I didn’t drink to get drunk. I did it to succeed. Yet, therein lies the loophole. Anyone can and will get addicted to alcohol if they drink enough of it over time in the right circumstance. And that I did. Over and over again. I did not mean for this to happen, but alcohol did exactly what it is designed to do.

How Alcohol Works

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The Best Thing I Never Meant To Do

This is not who I set out to be. I did not mean for this to happen. Overall, I didn’t mean to get addicted. I didn’t plan to write a book about it. Out of all the horrible things that could have happened, this is the best thing I never meant to do. Allow yourself to celebrate your mistakes. Use them as an inspiration for others. To sum it up, you are not a failure. Your path is meant to guide others and allow them to flourish just as my path has helped you.