Stephanie went from – “I can’t stop drinking” to “I never have to drink again” with help from This Naked Mind!
It’s been 10 days since I thought ‘I can’t stop drinking’ to discover that I could! The first half of your book, I read at night – drunk. The second half, I read at night – sober.
I had a really horrible childhood, and up until I was 16, did everything I could to pretend like I didn’t. I did the extra credit, got good grades, was in sports and even band.
When I was 16, I was sexually assaulted – and that changed everything. I lost my trust in people – and I began drinking and smoking weed as a way to cope – to numb out. That led to me getting pregnant – with twins no less.
So at 17, I was a teen mom. My twins were born premature and had many health problems. I lived with my parents who resented me, but did help out with the twins. It was a really bad situation. I wanted to be a parent. More than anything, I wanted to be there for my children but being there meant I was subject to my parents verbal assaults and abuse. I felt very alone and turned even more to drugs and alcohol. Yet still trying to get good grades and looking like I had my life together.
I graduated high school early and went to a community college – where I graduated but didn’t do very well. By then, I was smoking weed every day. Drinking as much as possible (when I could), and just numbing out.
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I met, fell in love and got married to a drug addict when I was 19. It was so so hard. I was trying to keep it all together. Working, taking my kids to physical therapy- picking out a wheelchair for my son. While my husband would drink, fish, smoke weed, cheat on me, etc.
I finally got the courage to leave him after 7 years, only to find out I was pregnant. So, we ended up staying together for a couple more years. One day, he just told me he didn’t love me, never had, never will- and left for another woman.
There was some relief in that- and I remember realizing that I didn’t have to drink anymore to cope – that I could garden, read books, ect.
Within a year however, I was living with a man with 4 children and the drinking started again. This time, as wine. Wine and whiskey are socially acceptable, right?
Unhappiness followed me wherever I went. I couldn’t understand it. Why was I so unhappy? I had a great career (I am a photographer). My now husband loved me unconditionally. I had no idea that I was carrying around all this baggage – until…I learned about brain spotting.
The interesting thing about this, is that I was reading a book about it and the woman who my ex-husband left me for was actually doing the therapy and mentioned this great therapist in my town.
Side note: the ex husband is in prison. The woman had a child with him, so her son and my son are brothers. And we get along pretty well.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression. I did the brain spotting therapy and uncovered so many past emotions and events that I had stuffed away. Truly, I was ‘healed’. My marriage, which was completely torn apart prior to the brain spotting therapy, began to heal. I was healing. But what lingered was the fact that I can’t stop drinking!
I was waking up every morning, hungover. When I was drinking – I would shut down and not speak because I didn’t want to sound like a drunk a – hole. Couldn’t sleep. I didn’t want to run into anyone while walking the dogs in the morning because I felt like shit.
Finding This Naked Mind
How did I find your book? Someone had suggested it on a keto facebook page that I was on. Lots of people say ‘What can I drink while on keto?’ Someone wrote, “Try reading the book This Naked Mind And, that was it.
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I Can Stop Drinking!
I ordered it from the library. It sat around for a week or two. I buried it because I was too embarrassed to look at it. Then I started to read it, it made so much sense to me! Like I said, I read half of it drunk. One day, I just decided not to drink. I am a vodka/soda water kind of girl – and we were out of soda water. So instead of going to the store, I just made some tea.
Your book and tea have been my saving grace. I can drink as much tea as I want and still feel great!
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I listen to your podcast. I am so grateful for my life and the freedom that not drinking has given me. There is a long path ahead, but I am so optimistic about my future! Thank you! Please share your story if you found freedom with This Naked Mind or The Alcohol Experiment.